Being a stay at home mom is both a blessing and a curse. Sure I absolutely love all the perks of staying at home: not having to worry about taking off work when one of the boys are sick, going on field trips with them and helping out in their classes, taking them to all their activities, seeing their happy faces when you pull up in the carpool line, the list goes on and on.
Then there is the opposite side of the spectrum you tend to loose your own identity and become Nathan, Liam, and Braxton's Mom instead of Michelle. I have put so much effort into making their lives as "perfect" as possible I sort of made myself, them, and even Matt miserable at times. No family is perfect just like no one is perfect and it feels so nice to have that weight lifted off my shoulders. I can say I am the happiest I have been in the longest time. I have started focusing on myself and important relationships in my life, number one God and two my husband Matt. I hate to admit it to the world, but at times I have neglectedMatt's needs just because I was too busy trying to be "perfect".
Matthew, if you are reading this please know I love you with all my heart and I always will :)
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